Rant

No one is watching this blog and that's the way I like it. I can tell it secrets and no one will respond. I have something wrong with my liver, it didn't worry me, I don't know why. I was sent for an ultrasound and they found 'shadows' so now I am worried. I'm waiting for an MRI, the doctor said it could be ulcers but even he sounded unsure. I googled liver cancer and I wish I hadn't. I have one of the late stage symptoms. I'm losing my memory, losing words and now I'm scared. They didn't find one shadow, but several so if it's cancer I'm buggered. Ironically I don't feel ill, but my memory is bad, really bad and it's only been in the last several months that it's been this way. If anyone does happen across this please pray for me, that it might be ulcers or something less worrying than cancer.

Bad blogger redux

So this blogging thing, not going so well. Time is a definite issue, I'm trying to do my ou course and I think that may well have been a mistake. I'm too old and my brain definitely doesn't take things in the way it once did. And essays, oh my God, I cannot motivate myself to do the essays, I hate it. well only 4 and half more essays to go and then I can say I've finished - if I don't throw in the towel. Things that are going slightly better - I'm back on the diet after a Christmas hiatus, and even though I ate everything that wasn't nailed down over the festive period I still managed to lose half a pound. I hope it wasn't delayed weight gain and when I go this week I find out that I've put on half a stone or something. Also I've been doing some writing and I'm quite pleased with that, it's not Shakespeare but it's better than I thought I was capable of. Anyhoo, I have an essay to finish so I'm off to play Zuma's revenge, what? I can procrastinate with the best of them!